Updated: Nov 10
Its 2002 in Portland Oregon, and I am roaming around this beautiful city with my Pentax and wide angle lens. I've loaded it with 400 TMAX on this typically cloudy day and, as every film photographer knows, I am set to make every frame count, since I only get 36 of them. And now? In 2025 I can shoot-shoot- shoot away because we are in a digital age, and its SO much easier to get what we want. Right? I definitely take advantage of the technology we have at our fingertips! The possibilities seem endless. But are they? Why do I feel that something is lost, with some of the image generating processes at hand? I could go a lot of directions with this, but the simple fact is that there IS a loss, for me. What is real? When did that stop being important? And where do we draw the line between utilizing the tools at hand, and being untrue? I think for every individual, the answer will be different.

A couple of years ago a friend of mine in Seattle photographed me. I had the full-on photo shoot experience that I offer my own clients. I did the full hair and makeup, and had three outfit changes. It was so different being in front of the lens and not behind it. My friend Susan, who I thought I knew well, transformed somehow into this badass director, artist, set designer, and zenmaster. Lol. I was nervous. I didn't know how to stand, or sit for the camera. She positioned my body and her camera in a way that would look good in the final image. I began to relax, my smile was not plastered on anymore, it became genuine. Then suddenly it was a dance. There was a flow of energy, from Susan to myself and vice versa, as we talked and laughed through our photo shoot, and that energy would come through, in a frame here, a frame there, until I ended up with a beautiful collection of personalized portraits. Looking back at those photos, I can see it in my eyes, that energy. The connection. I felt all warm and fuzzy inside, just knowing that I had been seen and photographed in that way.
What I want to see, when I look at pictures of the people that I love, such as my own sons, is their spirit; their light, their energy, their mood, in that particular single moment in time. THIS is what I love about being a portrait photographer. This connection, this moment which seems to crystalize, but then the energy in that photograph goes on into eternity it seems, each time a generation sees it on their screen or, better yet, holds it in their hands. This is what is real for me, and in portrait photography, this is what I hold dear. ❤️








